Accomplice: I believe Cosmo's presence will be enough. Accomplice: But mostly I fear to be a manner of danger, myself. Accomplice: You see... Accomplice: Sigh. Accomplice: It's hard to put into words. Accomplice: I suppose I simply cannot tell how much of my reaction is genuinely mine and how much is born of fear. Accomplice: Because back there I was terrified enough that I would have done anything to placate him. And now I cannot help but worry that my desire to see you is that fear seeking a way out. Accomplice: If I wish to see you, it should be because I want to, not because I am desperate for your favour again.
[Well that fucking sucked to type out! Please appreciate his efforts at self-therapy! He's going to get a drink now!]
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timeasmymeasure
Re: 334
Date: 2021-02-21 12:26 am (UTC)I do wish to yo see you, but there must be measures in place where you feel safe enough to do so
Re: 334
Date: 2021-02-21 01:56 pm (UTC)Accomplice: I believe Cosmo's presence will be enough.
Accomplice: But mostly I fear to be a manner of danger, myself.
Accomplice: You see...
Accomplice: Sigh.
Accomplice: It's hard to put into words.
Accomplice: I suppose I simply cannot tell how much of my reaction is genuinely mine and how much is born of fear.
Accomplice: Because back there I was terrified enough that I would have done anything to placate him. And now I cannot help but worry that my desire to see you is that fear seeking a way out.
Accomplice: If I wish to see you, it should be because I want to, not because I am desperate for your favour again.
[Well that fucking sucked to type out! Please appreciate his efforts at self-therapy! He's going to get a drink now!]
Re: 334
Date: 2021-02-21 06:50 pm (UTC)he doesn't know he's going to get a drink, but, ]
Absinthe: If that is your concern you need not see me
I do not want to make you feel as if you must, out of obligation